Do you ever feel like everything hurts?
It hurts to breathe, it hurts to think, it hurts to just be awake.
Your throat feels like it is closing and you are drowning.
I feel like I'm being held underwater and no matter how many
times that I gasp and grasp that I get no where. I'm always stuck
in this same position..
One these days,
I just want to cry. I want to curl up and not exist.
I just want to sleep until it's all over.
I wish I knew what triggered these episodes.
I wish I knew how to stop these triggers.
I want to be able to talk to someone about what's going on.
I want to be able to feel 'normal' and not be controlled by
my own mind. Yet, every time I start to open my mouth..
I can't find the words.
I hate being afraid.
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